Pondering my M.O.

[vvvexation]

Rereading earlier entries, I'm amused at how easily (and sometimes unexpectedly) it appears I go into Pursuit Mode, especially given that my pursuits aren't really all that intensive. I mean, I do get kind of enthusiastic about 'em, but I'm generally not very emotionally invested in the outcome. Normally I figure this is a good thing, but lately it seems symptomatic of the fact that I'm not terribly emotionally invested in anything because there's nothing for me to be invested in. This is somewhat depressing, yet there isn't much to be done about it.

Each of those sentences would probably make an entry on its own if I were to elaborate on them properly, but I'm not sure I could do so with any degree of clarity at the moment. To forestall offers of sympathy, I'm not depressed overall just now (in fact my mood's much better than it was a week ago); this is just something that's churning a bit. Life is mostly good, it's just getting me down a little that it's been so long since I had any strong feelings of a positive sort. I suppose I just gotta continue trusting that something'll come along eventually, and meanwhile take my enjoyment where I can find it just as I've been doing.

Comments

[olego.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad that you feel happier than before.

[satyrblade.livejournal.com]

Just do that, then.

Recognize that life occasionally demands that we sit our passions out and simply exist in an active space, trusting that our joi de vie will return, brighter than ever for having rested for a while.

*hugs*

[imnotbob.livejournal.com]

A lot of what you said in that first paragraph sounds awfully similar to how I feel at times.

[akienm.livejournal.com]

I would like for both of us to try and remember to bring this up when next I see you.